inside i know i'm broken but i'm working as far as you can see

After crashing in any bed i could find over the past week since getting back from Ireland/Scotland, I went back to doing american stuff.  Vacation bible school started today and its only a week, but its always a long ass week.  Not only do I gotta wake up early but theres always 1 or 2 kids who really deserve to be fed to starving africans.  Last year it was Zach and this year it looks to be DJ, who enjoys biting me/keith's shirt and not letting go.

When that was over I stuffed my face with any kind of lunch meat I had in my fridge and took a nap.  thats what summers about.

forfa called me at like 830 and we went uptown.  then we sat at dunkin donuts for 45 minutes waiting for ed to give us a ride to mcdonalds.  and he finally came through, after all the times he was busy or had work or was out, ed finally had the time to bring us somewhere.  what a guy.

10 nuggets and a large coke wasnt enough for me though, when we got dropped back off at dunkin donuts i tossed 2 donuts into my gut quickly and had forfa's dad bring me home.

 

songs of the day-

'brenda got a baby' 2pac

'keep ya head up' 2pac

'da countdown' redman

'los angeles is burning' bad religion

'boot stamping on a human face forever' bad religion

dream as if youll live forever, live as if youll die today

I got back from my trip to Ireland/Scotland yesterday. I could try and explain how much fun I had but itd be impossible. Besides seeing some of the most beautiful places I'll ever see, I met the most insane kid I've ever met in a life of meeting crazy people. His name is Wills, but its more of a Z sound. The stories he told and the way he told them was so fucking funny. Im never ever gonna forget Wills(Willz), for he brought me some truly great times. I can try and explain how Willz had me laughing my ass off time after time, but it wouldnt matter, because you seriously need to meet him to understand how crazy and "badass" Wills is. But back to the rest of the trip, everything was so beautiful. Things were just cleaner and nicer over there, despite it being cloudy and rainy for most of the day. The people all seemed nicer then most people over here in the states, the one's I met atleast. The hotels we stayed in were all nice, especially the Hilton where I met Laura, the love of my life. I wish I could have stayed there forever, Ireland specifically. I didnt miss the states much, and things like not having the internet or TV didnt matter. Best 12 days of my life, and now I gotta start saving for Italy next summer.

EDIT: How dare I forget to mention that not only did Willz bring me a shitload of giggles but so did weewol noey and emmie, and jamie and jenna and keith. best people ever.

Top 15 Songs of the Moment:

1. I Wonder if Heaven Got a Ghetto - 2pac
2. Da Saga Continues - Redman
3. Los Angeles is Burning - Bad Religion
4. I Aint Mad at Cha - 2pac
5. Boot Stamping on a Human Face Forever - Bad Religion
6. The Show - Method Man
7. Brick Intensions - Redman
8. Zero - Smashing Pumpkins
9. Found the Truth Within - H2O
10. Let Them Eat War - Bad Religion
11. Brenda's Got a Baby - 2pac
12. Say it Aint So - Weezer
13. Suicidal Thoughts - Biggie
14. Welcome Back - Mase
15. Xample - One Cool Guy

and in my head i can hear Jam Master jammin'

Summer has been all hunky-dory so far, ROFL LAMO!~!~! With my trip to Ireland/Scotland approaching I'm trying to enjoy this state and more specifically Kenilworth for all it is worth. I sure am gonna miss the stink of corroding feces and the seemingly endless amount of unfriendly passer-by's on the streets. But seriously folks, Kenilworth's gay. I could go on and whine about all the bad things but I wont. Anyone reading this from Kenilworth already knows. I could also talk about all the fun times I've had so far this summer with people like Kevin or Forfa, but I wont do that either. The next thing I'll thoroughly write about is Ireland/Scotland but that wont be till July 12th or 13th when I get back. For now I'll just leave you with a list, because everyone loves lists.

By the way, there is a little thing at the bottom of each of my posts where you can positively comment on my posts or critique my flappy tits and awful smile. Now here's the list:

Top 10 CD's I Need to Get
1. Redman - Ill at Will Mixtape Vol. 1
2. Maritime - Glass Floor
3. Mos Def and Talib Kweli - Blackstar
4. Mike Ness - Cheating at Solitaire
5. Greg Graffin - American Lesion
6. Notorious BIG - Ready to Die(embarrassing that I dont already own it)
7. Dr Dre - The Chronic(again, embarrassing I dont have it)
8. Method Man - Tical
9. Bob Dylan - The Essential Bob Dylan
10. Burning Airlines - Mission:Control

end of school

school ended friday and thats cool. now i get to go back to my normal, vampire-like summer routine. school was awful again this year and itll be even worse next year with the a/b schedule. but since schools over id rather not think about it till it starts again.

july 1 is comin up and thats when im going to ireland and scotland for two weeks. thats gonna own everyone elses summer vacations. ireland is beautiful and ive always wanted to go there. im really gonna take advantage of getting to go to a place i probably will never get the chance to go to again. by take advantage i mean im gonna steal all the hotel towels i can. and maybe take some neat pictures.

today i was chillin wit my old man and grandma cause it was fathers day. we did some family stuff and went out to eat. it was good, cause the food was good. and good food is important to a muscle tone-less slob like myself. not only did i shove as much graham crackers and chicken salad into my beefy face as i could at lunchtime, i devoured a plate of baked lasagna, soup, and ice cream at a diner about 4 hours later.

now im home comtemplaying playing a simpsons version of monopoly with my brother or sticking my fingers down my throat to get rid of the shit i ate today.

bands/artists im hung up on now:
royce da 5'9
method man
redman
naughty by nature
bob dylan
mike ness
grag graffin
beastie boys

mmmmm, delicious

Weekends own. Friday I was hanging out with Forfa and we were just chillin for a bit, then some hunger came. And when we get hungry, the place to go is White Castle. Apparently Lunch drives so we got a ride from him and picked ourselves up a crave case. We killed that in a couple minutes at blackbrook then we needed something to do. So we were just walking around I forget what street but we found this killer tire. And we just rollin it around places for a while and we rolled it to Guffy's house. The rest of the night is pretty weird, and I dont quite remember how it ended, but I went from rollin tires by Guffy's house to eating a steak at Daniela's house. You can fill in whatever story you want to explain how I ended up there, itll probably make as much sense as the real story.
Then saturday was good. After the whole "work" thing in the morning I hung out with Kevin and met the girlfriend, Amanda. She fits in too well with me Keith and Kevin which is why I have to kill her. No woman are allowed in our lil clique and shes infiltratin stuff.
Pistons-Lakers game is on now and Pistons are up 49-46 right now in the 3rd. BIG BEN takin it all the way. Pistons are winning the championship.

Band of the weekend- Sunny Day Real Estate
Band of the weekend2- Dismemberment Plan

Mase is back, bitches

Ive given into the survey-takin' world of a "blogger". Im now offically a fat girl. But filling out these 100 questions has given me something other to do then stare down at my ugly body and contemplate throwing myself into oncoming traffic.

By the way, Mase is back in the hip hop game. Check out his new single 'Welcome Back' right here.

1. Who are you? William Richard Cunningham IV
2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you? I love music, parts of the female anatomy, and reciting quotes from movies such as 'Caddyshack 2', 'Malibu's Most Wanted', and 'Police Academy 4'
3. When you aren't filling out question surveys like this one what are you doing? Nodding off and waking up in strange places, gambling, and staring at my "Where's the Party?" monkey poster wondering to myself..."Where's the party?"
4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time). English 2, Web Design, World History, Info Processing, Geometry
5. What is your biggest goal for this year? Bang a red-head and get hammered when I go to Ireland and Scotland this summer.
6. Where will you be in 5 years? I'll figure it out in 5 years. But most likely i'll be wandering the same road with no future or no destiny.
7. What do you want to be when you grow up? A fireman.
8. Are you more child-like or childish? Childish
9. What is the last thing you said out loud?"HUZZAH!"
10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now? "King of Fools" - Social Distortion
11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes? No
12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same? It depends on the day, theres no permanent up or down trend.
13. Does time really heal all wounds? Not the ones that leave scars
14. How do you handle a rainy day? Like I would a sunny day I guess, minus the going outside.
15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights? Having to sort out cum-covered luggage.
16. How is your relationship with your parents? Good.
Will you miss them when they are gone? Yes.
17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you? I'm always aware of everything.
18. What is the truest thing that you know? Fish dont fry in the kitchen. Beans don't burn on the grill. Both are so true.
19. What do you want your life to be like, as the future takes clearer shape?I'll figure it out when things clear up.
20. Have you ever been given a second chance? Yepperz.
21. Are you more of a giver or a taker? Giver.
22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart?Yeah
23. What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you? My cousin kicked me so hard in the balls last summer, I'm so glad I didnt piss blood.
24. What is the most emotionally painful thing that has ever happened to you? Watching Keith do something awful involving my childhood rocking horse at my 5th grade birfday party.
25. Who have you hugged today? Mommy
26. Who has done something today to show they care about you? My mom had bought home bagels when I woke up at 1:30, and she KNOWS I love bagels.
27. Do you have a lot to learn? I suppose.
28. If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by working what would they be?
A Make origami animals
B Speak fluent Dutch
C Write in cursive
29. Which do you remember the longest: what other people say, what other people do or how other people make you feel? All 3, I've got a killer memory.
30. What are the key ingredients to having a good relationship? Sex and good post-sex conversation.
31. What 3 things do you want to do before you die?
A See Weezer live
B Hear H2O go back to their roots and put out a good album
C Start my own record label
32. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing?
A I'd want to die so I dont have to work as a slave on a plantation farm
B I'd want to die so I dont have to be stuck in a really small space for a really long time
C I'd want to die so I dont have to live with AIDs, but ive been OK with it so far
33. Is there a cause you believe in more than any other cause?No
34. What does each decade make you think of:
The 19..
20's: The Roarin' Twenties
30's: Depression
40's: World War II
50's: Nothing....geeze, i'm glad I didnt live in those boring ass 1950's
60's: Unprotected sex
70's: Punk rock
80's: Really big hair
90's: The Godfather III
2000 (so far): Celebrities spending way too much money
35. Which decade do you feel you belong in and why? 1990's, my real youth took place in the 90's, the days of childhood were my greatest.
36. What is your favorite oldie/classic rock song? I got a lot, but ill give ya two im really into now:
"Hurricane" - Bob Dylan
"Bad Moon Rising" - Creedence Clearwater Revival
37. If you could say any sentence to the president of the USA what would it be? "WWWWWWWWWWWAAAASSSSSSSSSSSUUUUUUUUUPPPPPP!!!"
38. What's your favorite TV channel to watch in the middle of the night?ESPN
39. What Disney villain are you the most like and why? Banzai, the hyena from the Lion King voiced by Cheech Marin.
40. Have you ever been a girl scout/boy scout? No
41. If you were traveling to another continent would you rather fly or take a boat? Fly
42. Why is the sky blue during the day and black at night? Cause the Earth rotates around the sun.
43. What does your name mean? What DOESN'T it mean?
44. Would you rather explore the deeps of the ocean or outer space? Ocean, there's lots of cool shit down there.
45. Word association
What is the first word that comes to mind when you see the word:
Air: Care
Meat: Loaf
Different: Pink
Pink: Dink
Deserve: Dessert
White: Right
Elvis: Costello
Cilantro: Cilantro?
Heart: Fart
Clash: Bash
Pulp: Fiction
46. If you could meet any person who is dead and famous who would you want it to be? Rodney Dangerfie....oh wait
47. What if you could meet anyone alive and famous? Rodney Dangerfield
48. Is there a movie that you love so much you could watch it everyday? Goodfellas, Godfather 1 or 2, Caddyshack, Lion King, Reservoir Dogs, Fight Club, Friday
49. You are going to be stuck alone in an elevator for a week. What do you bring to do? Lots of pillows and maybe some chocolate pudding
50. Have you ever saved someone's life or had your life saved? No
51. Make up a definition for the following silly words...
Fruitgoogle: the tastiest version of Google ever
Ambytime: stupid, ugly blades of grass
Asscactus: a spiky hair on one's behind
52. What was the last thing you made with your own hands? A mess of myself!
53. What was your favorite toy as a child? Probably a football
54. How many TV’s are in your house? 5 that work
55. What is your favorite thing to do outside? Play football
56. How do you feel when you see a rainbow? Horny
57. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true? No, unfortunately I never got to surf with the cast of Happy Days
58. Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader? No
59. What is your idea of paradise? A town made of pillows
60. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like? Looks like Brad Pitt and is really, really smart
61. Do you believe in Hell? Yes
62. What one thing have you done that most people haven't? Watched every episode of TV Funhouse
63. What is the kindest thing you have ever done? One time I gave somebody a mint even though they didnt need it!
64. Are you a patient person? Only with people who I know aren't capable of doing something theyre supposed to be doing
65. What holiday should exist but doesn't? A rememberance day for both December 7, 1941 and September 11, 2001.
66. What holiday shouldn't exist but does? Martin Luther King Jr Day
67. What's the best joke you ever heard? I've yet to hear a funny one.
68. Where is the most fun place you have EVER been? Asia Restaurant
69. Is your hair natural or dyed? Natural
70. Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front? I'm so upfront you'd think I was in the back.
71. What is under your bed right now? A cup, an old action figure and my jizz rag......Gotcha!...theres no cups under my bed.
72. If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home? Go home
73. If you drive do you frequently speed? I dont drive but I will speed when I do.
74. What is the world's best song to dance to? "Shiny Happy People" - REM
75. What song was on the last time you danced with someone? "Feels So Good" - Mase(remember him?)
76. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers? Disney
77. What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo? I dont "do" zoo's
78. Would you consider yourself to be romantic? I'm too much of a playa to be romantic.
79. If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off? If we jumped high enough we would
80. What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it? Listen to music
81. If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick? Right to keep and bear arms
82. If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole? Equator, I'd have an excuse to blast my A/C year round.
83. Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television? Watching television
84. What do you think makes someone a hero? Tight costume
85. What cartoon would you like to be a character in? Animaniacs
86. Name one thing that turns your stomach: Someone really strong. Get it?
87. What was the last thing you paid for? Lunch
88. Is there magic even in mundane things? Mud dancing? What?
89. Get anything good in the mail recently? Yes, a poster and some stickers I won from Punknews.org
90. Which would you rather take as a gym class...dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling? Bowling
91. In Star Trek people 'beam' back and forth between different places. What this means is they stand in a little tube and their molecules are deconstructed and sent to another tube somewhere else where they are reassembled. Only problem is when the molecules are deconstructed the person is dead. When they are put back together it is only a clone that has all the dead person's memories. So...
Is the person who gets beamed the same person on both ends? Yes
92. What insects are you afraid of? Dogs LOL RFLMAO
93. If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say? "FREE O.D.B!"
94. What's the most eccentric thing you have ever worn? A "Hulk Rules!" t-shirt
95. If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be? Keebler Fudge Strip cookies
96. What are your parents interested in? My mom loves cigarettes and daddy rides a big motorbike
97. Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet? No
Have you ever caught and tamed a wild animal? No
98. What is more helpful to you, wishes or plans? Neither
99. What does happiness/joy feel like physically? A boner
100. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring? A pillow, some girl scout cookies, and maybe a big stick for defendin' myself

Ronald Reagan, Dead.

Ronald Reagan
1911-2004
Rest in Peace

I slit my wrist for the first time last night....I just couldn't deal with things going on in my life anymore and I wanted to just feel something else.
Actually I just kept my hand on a fence too long when I was hoppin it and my wrist got cut as I was in the air. It does make me look like a psycho, which is great for the image I'm goin for.

After being my usual bum self and napping for a couple hours after dinner I schlep out of my house to hang out with Keith at about 8:30. Its terrible being car-less in Kenilworth. I cant stand those mongoloids who are old enough to drive but still do nothing but drive around Kenilworth all night. What the hell is the point of that, its just wasting gas, money, and the novelty of having a car and being young. But my bitterness aside, tonight was good. Me and Keith went to those football things again at Brearley and like OMG it wuz SO funy LoLeRz!~!~! Then when I got home there was half a White Castle crave case sitting on my "dining room" table and some Dunkin Donuts munchkins on the kitchen counter. As you can probably already tell, I ate a lot of them.

Oh yeah, in english we have to make a play using some themes from Of Mice and Men. And my group(bury, tom, nicole f. and myself) is doing a killer play. Its just sexual jokes through the whole thing and once MrPickton sees it hes probably gonna make us change a lot of shit, but its fun writing it. Here's an excerpt from Act 1, Scene 1:

Capt. Lou(Tom): Hello love.
Capt. Lou's Wife(Nicole): Hey cap'n.
Capt. Lou: Why the long face?
Capt. Lou's Wife: (sigh)
Enter Clark Gable
Clark Gable(Mike): Sounds to me like youre not up to par when it comes to bed Louie boy!
Capt. Lou: Dont you have some rooms to clean?
Gable: I s'pose I do, maybe on my way back though I'll stop by your wifes room and give her the good stuff.
Capt. Lou's Wife: (smiles)
Capt. Lou: Dont you look at him! (slaps his wife)
Capt. Lou's Wife: (runs off crying)
Exuent Capt. Lou's Wife
Capt. Lou: Damnit Gable thats the 3rd time this week Ive had to slap my wife.
Gable: How does it fell Louie boy to lose your wife from something a house keeper started!
Capt. Lou: That's captain to you sscum. I can fire you like this. (snaps finger)
Gable: Alright Louie, dont be so cold...(walks away then turns slowly)..LIKE YOUR HEART.
(End Scene)

Been awhile

I havent updated in a while, partially because I didnt want to contribute my awfulness to the blog world and partially because I'm too bummed out because of school ending soon to do anything.
Over the past month, my 16th birthday came and went. I amassed more mosquito bites on my body in one night then Ive ever seen on any one person. And I found the best blog that you people arent reading(jimnorton)
Like I mentioned, schools ending on June 18th I think. So thats like 14 more days or something, only like 9 though cause that last week is just finals and shit. And sure, 14 days of school doesnt seem like much but I know that its gonna go by slower then watching an elder family member get sodomized by an autistic teen. I dont care how many people try and tell me "high school goes by so fast", it doesnt. And each day is more insufferable and unbearable. Having to sit through Mrs Writener's horrible faces and spit-fests.
But on a better note, Im going to be getting an iPod within the next week or so.

Holds up to 5,000 songs and weighs less then 2 cd's. Plus, rechargeable battery and the batterys life is up to 8 hours. This thing is basically a must for me now.

Song of the day - 'Hurricane' - Bob Dylan
Song of the day2 - entire Pinkerton album- Weezer
Song of the day3 - 'hip hop' - Mos Def
Song of the day4 - 'One More Chance Remix' - Biggie(it was on hot97 when i woke up this morning, yea thats right, i wake up to hot97)

rock n roll babylon

I picked up this book over the weekend and its very good. A very informative book on the history of rock n roll.

Other then that, not much has been goin on lately, hence the lack of updates.

"recording artists" of lately - one man army, biggie, outkast(more specifically big boi), ludacris, bad religion

"Boot Stamping On A Human Face Forever"

“Don’t ever dare to hope,” he said
“So I’m never let down too bad
“I know there’s nowhere to go
“So I’ll just stay here, instead”
He knew better than to pull at a thread
They unravel like the thoughts in his head
He looked out; it filled him with dread


I havent updated this ol' thing for over a week, and its cause spring break was non stop rockin. Sucks that its over but it was good while it lasted.

New Bad Religion album, 'The Empire Strikes First', out June 8th!!